WHEN THET SPEAKS: Unbounded.Uncensored.Unsuppressed.No Rules.No Non-Sense.

Sa dami ng gus2 kong ikwento, I no longer know how to start this post. Nag uunahan lahat ng ideas and memories sa utak ko. So please bear with me if this post is too sabog to be understood. LOL Let me consult my organizer for the series of events that happened to me a week before I gave birth (yes, I am kept an organizer instead of diary/blog for this chapter of my life. I want it to be private muna kasi. And now it’s time to share it with my dear friends…)

September 15- I had my weekly check up with my OB and from there, I found out that Baby T already weighed 6.8 lbs at 38 weeks. At that moment, my Cavite-based OB advised me to have a pelvicmetry x-ray. This is to ensure that my pelvic bone is able to deliver a 6.8 pound-er baby. I went to St. Martin Clinic (also in Cavite) and had my x-ray done right away. Though I am pretty confident na ok naman ang measurement ng “sipit-sipitan” ko, I already had this hunch that my OB wanted to have a caesarian section delivery. Hmm…fishy-fishy. (side note: My OB is hubby’s family OB. When my sister-in-law delivered her baby girl, she went under c-section. Nung una, nagtyaga sila na mai-normal sana ang delivery. But upon meeting kung sino ang nanay ni sister-in-law, nag suggest na mag CS since kayang-kaya naman daw ng budget. BWISET! As if naming byenan ko ang magbabayad ng hospital bill. Sister-in-law gave birth in a private hospital sa Cavite kaya “nakuryente” ako sa total bill na uber sa mahal ang. OO nga, CS ang delivery pro dapat provincial rate ang charge..tumatahinting na P80k lang naman. Oh di ba, parang Manila rate!) Anyway, a lot of people are saying na mataas pa daw ag tyan ko. Kaya ayun, kami ni Mike and Avhen, walk-athon lagi ang drama after shift. Tipid na sa pamasahe, exercise pa at higit sa lahat nakakapag chismisan pa kami about office stuff. Hehehehehe!

September 22- Another weekly check up. I am already on my 39^th week. This time, baby already weighed 7lbs. When my OB showed me the result of my pelvicmetry xray, I already knew that she’s gonna suggest that I have a CS delivery even before she started discussing the specifics of the xray. Ang totoo nyan, hindi na ako interested sa mga sinasabi nya the moment na sinabi nyang I have to undergo CS delivery. Ah ewan, basta nagpanting na tenga ko. I insisted on saying na I want to have a normal delivery. Siguro she sensed that I am very firm on having normal delivery so what she told me was she will give me until my expected due date (EDD) which is September 29 to have spontaneous labor, otherwise, CS na talaga. When I asked her kung pwede bang I-induce labor na lang, she said that she doesn’t induce labor kapag may pelvimetry disproportion. Hellar! As if ang laki ng discrep sa measurement ng pelvic bone ko. Average ang size ng “sipit-sipitan” ko and at that time, I strongly believed na kaya kong mag luwal ng 6.8 lbs na bata. I just told her na maghihintay na lang ako hanggang EDD ko. If by that time, walang spontaneous labor eh di go na sa CS. By the way, there wasn’t any IE made on my cervix. Kaya hindi ko alam ko ripe na ba sya for delivery or not. HmmfftTtt!!!

September 23- Supposedly, this is my last day in the office. Kaso with the news that I got, I thought na mas ok ng magwork muna ko. I’m getting impatient na talaga. Ang rason ko, kung maabutan man ako sa office, isang sneeze lang ang Medical City from the office, saka anjan namann si Daddy James eh. Hehehe. Talagang mababaliw ako sa kakahintay kung kelan lalabas ang anak ko. I planned to pay Edsa Shrine a visit on this day kaso umulan naman. I was determined pa rin sana to go to church but Mark and Josh insisted that I should just go home and rest. So I ended up going home na lang. But I promised myself na magsisimba ako the following day.

September 24- I woke up on this day with tolerable pain in my groin area. Since it’s tolerable, I just ignored it. While at work, I suddenly felt this feeling in my abdomen. Feeling ko natatae ko but when I went to the bathroom, wala naman. I emailed Janet about what I felt and she was very thoughtful naman to check on me. I thought yun na yung “this is it” moment pero false alarm naman. This time, naalala ko that Aian, Jaids and Jerks are devotees of St. Jude. (Malacanang) so I invited myself (LOL) to join them. Right after our shift, we headed to St. Jude Thaddeus parish na. During the mass, I can’t help but cried, asking for St. Jude’s help na sana, maipanganak ko si baby through normal delivery. I made a pact with him, if I am going to deliver my baby through normal section I’ll name baby after him. He shall be named Terrence Jude instead of Terrence Russell. When the mass ended, hinabol ko pa yung lay minister para masabuyan ako ng holy water. Hindi na nga ako nahabol ni Jerks sa sobrang bilis ko daw. LOL We had a good time eating chicken balls sa katabing tindahan ng parish. Ryan and his fiancée fetched me hangang Mendiola. Commute lang ako ng G-Liner hanggang Rosario, Pasig. I wqas able to take a nap hanggang Robinsons area. Nakarating ako sa apartment ng 10am. I instantly dozed off. Napagod eh.

September 25- This is my last day na talaga sa office. I have already transitioned everything to my ever reliable assistant, Becky. All coaching sessions were done. All systems go na talaga for me to leave. After our shift (which is actually SEPTEMBER 26 na kasi graveyard shift kami eh)I invited few friends for an early breakfast pero may ilang nag beg off. Nag iinarte eh.. as if naman! (u know who you are people…LOL). After the breakfast, nagpunta ako ng Our Lady of REMEDIES Parish a.k.a. Malate Church. This is also the same church where hubby and I got married. Again, commute lang ako. Mag isa lang ako commute. Not even Russell knew na nagpunta me ng Malate Church kasi for sure, mapapagalitan ako nun. I took the stairs of MRT miski may escalator naman. By the time I arrived sa church,saktong pasimula na lang ang mass. When the mass ended, nagmano ako sa officiating priest. He asked me kelan me due, sabi ko sa this Sunday na po. He smiled at me, put his hand on my head and blessed me. At this instant, naiyak na ko. Talagang desperate na ko na mag normal delivery kasi ayoko talaga ng c-section. But when I got out of the church, nagsisimula na kong I-embrace ung idea na mag c-section ako if it’s the only way I could have a safe delivery. I went straight ahead to my folk’s house in QC. Bandang mga 2am, nag aya akong magpunta sa SM Fairview. Maglakad-lakad at bumili ng damit na pang ospital. Naalala ko na wala pa pala akong damit na nakahanda for hospital. We had our dinner at Gerry’s Grill. The moment I sat down sa table, nakaramdam me ng pagod.We arrived home mga 8pm na siguro. I was feeling well naman when we arrived. I just got too tired lang siguro kaya nakatulog kagad ako the moment na nahiga ako sa bed.

September 27, 12:30am- Nagising ako ng bigla kong na-feel na parang may discharge sa undies ko. Instantly, kinabahan na ko. At this point, I told myself “this is it! This is really it!” And I was right. When I checked my undies sa CR, there was a significant amount of blood na. And continuous na ung flow. Ginising ko kagad si Mama and my brother para itakbo na ko sa Bernardino Hospital. Yun kasi ung pinakamalapit na private hospital sa area namin. Hindi na ko nagpadala sa Cavite at baka sa daan pa ko maabutan.Anyhoo, si Papa ko naman nataranta. He intended to change his shorts. But he ended up rushing to our gate ng naka brief lang. LOLz ano ba yan! Pagpasenciahan nyo na. Tao lang at 78 years old na si Papa. So there, balik na naman si Papa sa room palit ng shorts. Hahahahaha! At 12:45am, nasa hospital na kami. Nakakaloka kasi hindi namalayan na butas pala ang kili-kili ng t-shirt ko (kamusta naman yun..uber taranta na!). Si mama ko naman eh naka duster lang. We were really unprepared for this event. Lahat ng gamit ni Baby at mga important papers for hospital eh nasa Cavite.(I called my in-laws saying na nagbleed ako and they need to rush na in Quezon City) In fact, ang baby bag eh nasa likod lang ng sasakyan ng in-laws ko para anytime na abutan me sa Cavite eh on the go na ako. Buti na lang may dala me lagi na digicam sa bag ko (to my dismay, nasira pala ang LCD ng camera ko so ang ending, wala kaming kuha na baby pics sa hospital). We rushed to the ER na where I was welcomed by a cutie-korean-looking doctor (oo, kamukha nya ung isang bidang daddy sa koreanovela na 3 daddys with one mommy). Dyahe lang when he did an IE on me na (eto ung sinusukat kung gano kabuki na ang vagina…potah kumekerengkeng pa talaga noh!). He said that I am 3 cm dilated na. To be fully dilated, kelangan ko na mag 9 or 10cm. I was informed by anurse na lalaki lang daw ang vailable na OB GYN at kung ok lang ba yun sa akin. Eh mag iinarte pa ba ako eh mapapaanak na ko? Sabi ko, ok lang ang important mapaanak ako ng maayos. Just before I was about to go to the Labor room, I was surprised to hear Papa nagpapa BP. Turned out tumaas ang BP nya. Nabigla siguro nung sinugod ako sa hospital. His BP zoomed in to 240/180. At this point, hindi ko muna inisip ang sarili ko. Naisip ko si Papa. So before I went to labor room, I told him to relax because I am going to be fine. Too bad though na hindi ko nakuha cellphone ko. Eh pwede naman pala sa labor room ang cellphone. Hindi ko tuloy naa-update sina Mama and Papa ko kung ano na developments ko. At around 3am, the nurse who was taking care of me informed me that my in-laws are already in the waiting area. Around 6am, I was already 7cm dilated na. Si nurse, may nilagay dun sa dextrose ko. Pampahilab yata kasi after nun, I can feel the pain of “hilab” with 2 minutes interval. Pero tolerable naman. Around 7am, hindi ko na kinaya ung pain so I told nurse about it. After 10 minutes, dinala na ko sa delivery room. This is the first time na na-ospital ako so the sight of an operating room really scared me. Inisip ko na lang na ang doctor ko eh sing-gwapo ng doctor bida sa NIP/TUCK. (LOL) But I was wrong (again!). The OB that was assigned to me was an old doctor. Siguro nasa 60s na pero gwapo mestizo. Feeling ko chickboy yung doc na yun during his tender years. Hehehehehe! Anyhoo, he did an IE on me again and from there, fully dilated na nga daw ako so pwede na. He instructed me how to do the “ire” thing. After the coaching session nagstart na naman humilab tyan ko. As instructed, kapag naramadaman ang hilab ng tyan, sabayan ng ire. So tthat’s what I did. Or so I thought. Turned out, mali ang ire ko. Galing daw kasi sa leeg ang ire. Dapat daw sa pwet. Naman! Pano kaya umire ang leeg!? Yun pala, kada ire ko, halis magkulay blue na daw ang mukha ko at ang leeg ko eh mababali na raw pero ang pwet ko, niko-contract ko daw. Mali nga. After an hour of trying, I already told my OB na i-CS na lang ako to which the doctor said, “Hindi, kaya mo I-normal ito. Galingan mo lang umire. Mas mahirap ang ma-CS ineng.Ayusin mo pag ire para makita mo na baby mo” Oh di ba? Hindi mukhang pera..kung ibang doctor lang ito, right away, isi-CS na ko. I have thought of undergoing CS procedure kasi masakit na talaga Much worse, ang sakit kaya ng binubulatlat ang “kipay” from time to time, lalo na at lalaki ang OB GYN ko. Besides, feeling ko nagkaroon na ako ng almoranas (hemorrhoid) sa kaka-ire.

Anyhoo, there were 5 nurses around the delivery room. Yung isang nurse, tinutulungan na ko magpush- dinadagan nya ang tummy (not the tummy itself but yung lower part ng breast) para lumabas na si baby. But it was good for nothing. Mga bandang 9am (yes, I still remember the time periods kasi may clock naman sa loob ng delivery room), nagpatawag na ng male nurse. Mas malakas kasi ang pwersa ng male nurse sa pagdagan sa akin.

Lutang na lutang, as in high na high ako after ko maramdaman na may malaking tae, ahhhhemm TAO pala na lumabas from me. Gumaan din ng bongga ang feeling ng tyan ko. Sobrang sayang lang talaga at nasira ang digicam ko. Wala tuloy akong souvenir ni baby sa delivery room.*Sob Sob

Since I gave birth through normal delivery delivery, Baby boy was name Terrence Jude instead of Terrence Russell. Thanks to St. Jude and to Virgin Mary!

How My Life Has Changed

People around me know that I am a very dynamic person and I get easily bored. It has been 2 weeks since I gave birth. I am living in my in-laws house for the entire duration of my maternity leave. Mas ok na ditto. Mas marami ang mag aalaga sa amin ni baby at anytime eh may matatawag kaming tao 24/7 just in case we need something. Mom has been with me for 2 weeks now. Sya ang nag-aalaga kay Terrence habang nagre-recuperate ang stitches ko. I am starting to hate the maternity pads. Makapal kasi. Pero mas ok na ito kesa sa usual sanitary napkin.

As of now, I can move around na. Pag nakikita kong hirap na si Mama sa pagkarga kay Terrence, ako na relyebo nya. Every two hours, nagigising si Baby. Palid ng diaper, papa-dede or minsan, gus2 lang masatisfy ang bisyo nya- KARGA. Lolz Being awake during the wee hours in the morning isn’t that hard naman for since I am a call center worker. Walang mashadong adjustment kumabaga.

Terrence: ganito ako matulog :)

May potential sa call center noh?

While chatting with Daddy Russell

Thank God! Hindi pango ang anak ko. Hehehe!